We need to break it off.
I just can’t take any more of this. This relationship is not good for me. It makes me feel angry, hurt and disappointed.
I can’t trust you. You have broken that trust just once too often.
The last time, I forgave you. We did what was necessary to make it all work again. I was just beginning to feel as though everything was getting back to normal.
But this time, I am not sure that I want to go on with all of this. It is just too hard. It takes too much vigilance, requires too much caution every day. I can never relax with you and just enjoy things. You are just too willing to give yourself over to anyone who stops by.
You have violated my trust once too often. You have not kept our secrets.
It’s so frustrating. You know that I will forgive you. You count on my devotion to you, and my need for this relationship. What would I do without you? I spend so much of my time with you. I share so much of myself with you.
Yes, you know that I will forgive you.
I always do.
After waiting for months for my computer to be functional after an infection with a very nasty virus, today one of my email accounts was hacked. I am still working on getting this mess straightened out. My passwords have now been changed. But my screams of anger and frustration may be audible on this blog for a while. Sorry.
Just My Life 
After the snow and wind stopped and everything grew really quiet I thought I heard a coyote’s howl coming from the south. It was you, wasn’t it?
By: Jon on February 28, 2012
at 11:26 am
Could’ve been me!
Are you getting buried in the snow with this one?
By: chlost on February 28, 2012
at 7:47 pm
We were hacked a number of years ago, and we now have giant walls. Avast and a couple more are on this computer. I do email on the web so nothing get’s to my computer. The two other most used computers have Norton and other spyware and anti everything ware.
I can hear you and am so sorry.
By: Mage Bailey on February 28, 2012
at 3:24 pm
I just had new security software installed. I think it was because it was an old email account and had a pretty weak password.
By: chlost on February 28, 2012
at 7:48 pm
That bites. I actually have been kind of hoping my laptop will die so that I can justify getting a macbook. But alas, it soldiers on and I’m too frugal to not keep using it.
By: Secret Agent Woman on February 28, 2012
at 7:51 pm
Yeah-here’s some unsolicited advice plan to get a new one BEFORE it dies. No fun to go through all that in emergency mode.
By: chlost on February 28, 2012
at 8:28 pm
As it happens, I did. The box arrived today! Gives me time to set it up and learn it at my leisure.
By: Secret Agent Woman on March 8, 2012
at 9:00 pm
Very smart….can’t wait to hear how you like it.
By: chlost on March 8, 2012
at 9:21 pm
How dreadful, I do sympathise. The intrusion is akin to being burgled and the loss of trust in one’s computer and the lack of a working tool really hit home. One is surprisingly emotionally involved with one’s computer!! I am so sorry for your frustration, anger and trouble. I could not live without a safe, working computer and I do not need it for work as you do, so big hugs, strong cup of tea, and buttered crumpet coming your way. XX
By: sweffling on February 29, 2012
at 5:24 am
Thank you so much for the tea and sympathy! I wish I could come to your place to enjoy it with you!
By: chlost on March 1, 2012
at 7:40 pm
I think the penalties for hackers and virus writers is that victims get to go into their homes with hammers and bust up everything they own, pulverize it.. smash in their car windows, lay waste to everything they own.
By: Robert the Skeptic on February 29, 2012
at 4:35 pm
That sounds perfect!
Robert, I cannot get comments to post to your blog. No matter how many times I try, it will not accept my word verifications. I promise that I am not a robot!
By: chlost on March 1, 2012
at 7:38 pm
How frustrating. Trying to remember new passwords is such a pain. I have a paper where I write my passwords in code (so someone can’t easily figure out what sites they are for.) The problem arises when I can’t even remember what sites they are for! Anyway, this paper turned up missing a few months ago (luckily I had another handwritten copy in our safe.) It took me several housr to change all the passwords, and make a new list!
P.S. Scream away…it really does help đŸ™‚
By: jannatwrites on March 4, 2012
at 4:58 pm
Computers are so wonderful but also so stressful. I can understand why you felt terrible. Our new desktop computer (bought last July) has been in the shop for two weeks with a malfunctioning memory. Luckily I still have my old laptop. I feel for you.
By: Vagabonde on March 4, 2012
at 8:47 pm