Nothing here

For some reason I cannot specify, I have not written much here for a long time.

Life here has been busy….in spurts.

We have a wedding coming up in about a month. We are the parents of the bride. The bride, however, has delegated all planning to the groom. She gets overwhelmed, and he appears to have taken over the details. I feel quite superfluous to the whole endeavor. We recently learned that her father will not walk her down the aisle. This is something that Merle has always looked forward to for his daughter. His feelings are hurt and he is quite disappointed. We realize that it is a rather sexist tradition, the father handing over the bride to the groom. (I tweaked a bit by having both of my (then in the midst of a divorce) parents walk me down the aisle at our wedding ceremony-quite radical when we married in the 70’s). It would have been nice to have been involved in the decision for our daughter’s wedding or to at least have had a chance for Merle to explain it was important to him.. We realize that it is their wedding, not ours, so we have not said anything. No one prepared me for the emotions which seem entwined in a wedding of a daughter. Our son’s wedding was stressful, but in a totally different way.

In any event, the wedding plans are not taking a lot of my time.

The summer weather has finally arrived. Our backyard was decimated last year by gophers, deer and moles. We also tore out a lot of shrubbery in the front yard. It is a bit depressing to look at either the front or back yard. The funds for a professional have not been available. The weather, energy, motivation or inclination have not been conducive to do much ourselves.

Yard work has not been taking much of my time, either.

My job has been busier-finally. Is it bad that I am happier when kids are getting into trouble or being in bad situations? That is my job security. For every house that has a break-in, every runaway, or every fight, I have more to keep me busy at work. There is something wrong with that. My work hours are still 8-5, though.

My job is not taking a lot of my time.

The granddaughters have been here a few times overnight. We had a grand tea party on a beautiful Sunday afternoon a few weeks back. They loved it. Now they want a tea party whenever they visit. We use the good china cups.

Tea party with the granddaughters on the front porch.

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They have been here a few weekends, but those visits are not taking up a lot of my time, either.

Merle had an unfortunate meeting with a deer on his way to work one morning. The deer did not survive. Merle was fine (thank goodness!). His car did not survive. The insurance company, after much anguished negotiation, totaled out the car and paid us the value. Merle then worked feverishly to find another car. In the interim, I was reduced to driving the farm truck to work….it is dirty, stinky and quite large to park at the curb. I hate to drive it, especially to work.

Merle’s car after “meeting” the deer.

He finally found a newer model of his previous car, and I now am driving that one. He is now driving my previous car.

Even though Merle put in a lot of time an energy on all of that, I did not. None of that has taken much of my time.

So, I return to my initial point. I have not been writing or posting here. But I haven’t got anything in particular that I can point to as a reason for that.

I just haven’t been motivated.

To do anything, really.

I am not sick.

I am tired. Just plain tired.

When my energy returns, I will be back.

For now, I think I’ll just take it easy for a while.

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