Posted by: chlost | March 24, 2011

All I’ve got to do is dream……..

Dreams are supposed to reflect your subconscious. That’s what I have heard, anyway. Overall, I don’t have many dreams that I remember. When I do, they are usually disturbing to me. Most do not stay in my mind for long, though.

This morning I fell back to sleep after waking up about an hour earlier than needed. I had a dream that has stayed with me all day. I am not sure what to make of it. The more I think about it, the more odd it seems to me.

In my dream, my youngest son has been removed from our family. My kids are teenagers in the dream. In this dream, I have not had any contact with my son for a long time, and I have only just realized that I should find an email address for him and write to him. For some reason, I believe that my daughter has his email address, and so I ask her to give it to me.

In my dream, I then go to bed. I dream of waking up and finding a young man in my son’s bed. It is my son, but much older than he was when I last saw him. I ask my husband if he knew that our son was here, and he responded that he was dropped off by an official person very late at night, and that he had come home from Oregon (Okay, Oregon I sort of understand, because our daughter lives there). The young man who is our son does not look much like our son, but somehow I know that it is him. He is not especially happy to be home. He blames us for being away for so long. My husband and I struggle to recognize him and what he has been through. In my dream, I don’t know why he was gone, or how to reconnect with him.  The feeling of loss to me and our family was very strong. I woke up feeling horrible.

So, what does this dream mean? Nothing? Does it reflect some deep anxiety I am feeling about my son? Is it something about our family that is bothering me? Is it a premonition about something bad that is going to happen to our family?

I don’t know. All I do know is that I want to shake this dream and the feelings around it. So far, being at work, driving back and forth, and talking to other people has not helped.  I thought writing about it might help me drop the feelings, expose them in all of their ridiculousness.

Not happening. Still there.

Maybe I will just go back to bed, take off some time and try to grab a nap this afternoon. Maybe I will have a good dream.

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Responses

  1. Sometimes certain dreams are real hard to shake. Wishing you pleasant dreams tonight and that this one will fade away. Try dreaming about the day in August when the last of the snow finally melts! 🙂

  2. I have always had weird dreams and I truly believe they mean nothing. Just some cells in the brain that are active, running around not knowing what to do and they produce these strange “picture shows.”
    The most disturbing one was repeated several times after my mother died. My dad and I were going to “do” the funeral right this time because we didn’t do it correctly the first time she passed away.

    Just odd cells………

  3. I kind of feel that our dreams are a vague combination of random things we heard, saw, or thought during the day. I sometimes have very upsetting dreams and like you have a really hard time shaking the bad feelings the dream provoked. Never has anything come to pass that even resembled the dream however.
    Do hope you have a great one tonight and for those good feelings last also.

  4. I’m with the other commenters, in that I don’t think the dream necessarily means anything. I wouldn’t read too much into it.

    Hope you sleep well tonight and if you have a dream, I hope it is a good one 🙂

  5. I’ve never had a disturbing dream come true either. They do haunt me at times, but always fade away.

  6. I don’t believe dreams are prophetic, but instead indicate issues your mind is working through. But often so masked it’s hard to interpret.

  7. I don’t think one dream would mean anything special. If you kept a “dream diary” and wrote your dreams every morning, after studying maybe two dozen or more dreams you may be able to see something, but just one is not enough. I read that very often when you have a dream like this in the early morning it is because your body has become too warm and it affects your brain. Don’t worry about it. Dreams work in symbols and usually don’t involve the person you dream about – it could mean that your son represent your youth or something like that. It has nothing to do with him.

    • The entire concept of dreaming is so odd. It is hard to believe it doesn’t mean something.


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